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Behind the fanfic 1: WHY R THEY SIBLINGS
**My first entry here! uwu**
So this is just something everyone notices on first glance - my obsession with that one metal band and that one girl group - those hyperfixations and projections on my personified, idealized perfect versions of those said music groups. But why exactly did I hyperfixate on Wonyoung and that one guy with those obnoxious aviator sunglasses?
Well, to be fair, it took me years to realize I was self-projecting. Projecting the persona I wish to be, want to be, through my head, making up a little universe of gen alpha brainrot and musicians and making them biologically related, even if it seems practically impossible. Heck, they were born on different decades, are from different generations, yet for me it's like they're only a few years apart. My mind just LOVES generating brainrot for me on autopilot, and I can't help it LOL
Since childhood, I've always had imaginary friends. Some grew up with me while some got retconned, and now came in new ones - Wonyoung and her 'brother'. Wonyoung is the cutesy, always pouting, the moody young lady who's always right by her brother's side, the rowdy, harsh but sweet rockstar. Wonyoung somehow represents my sensitive, innocent side I still cherish to this day, whereas her brother is the side who's seen the horrors of the world and is overprotective, the one guy who's seen terrible things and doesn't want his sister to suffer as much as he did. Strangely enough, I relate to my version of M Shadows more than Wonyoung, even if, again, I'm an only child; and as much as I wanted to be more of a Wonyoung, I hyperfixate on him more than her, and it totally does not have to do with me having a huge crush on him. Nope. XD
These two characters have been a huge comfort to me since around 2022, and they're probably here to stay for like, a couple more years or a decade like my other hyperfixations. :))
So this is just something everyone notices on first glance - my obsession with that one metal band and that one girl group - those hyperfixations and projections on my personified, idealized perfect versions of those said music groups. But why exactly did I hyperfixate on Wonyoung and that one guy with those obnoxious aviator sunglasses?
Well, to be fair, it took me years to realize I was self-projecting. Projecting the persona I wish to be, want to be, through my head, making up a little universe of gen alpha brainrot and musicians and making them biologically related, even if it seems practically impossible. Heck, they were born on different decades, are from different generations, yet for me it's like they're only a few years apart. My mind just LOVES generating brainrot for me on autopilot, and I can't help it LOL
Since childhood, I've always had imaginary friends. Some grew up with me while some got retconned, and now came in new ones - Wonyoung and her 'brother'. Wonyoung is the cutesy, always pouting, the moody young lady who's always right by her brother's side, the rowdy, harsh but sweet rockstar. Wonyoung somehow represents my sensitive, innocent side I still cherish to this day, whereas her brother is the side who's seen the horrors of the world and is overprotective, the one guy who's seen terrible things and doesn't want his sister to suffer as much as he did. Strangely enough, I relate to my version of M Shadows more than Wonyoung, even if, again, I'm an only child; and as much as I wanted to be more of a Wonyoung, I hyperfixate on him more than her, and it totally does not have to do with me having a huge crush on him. Nope. XD
These two characters have been a huge comfort to me since around 2022, and they're probably here to stay for like, a couple more years or a decade like my other hyperfixations. :))
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So basically, m shadows is like my dark and edgy side, the one who wants to prove others wrong and is tough on the outside but would most likely freak out at the most minor of inconveniences 😂
He wears all black, paints his nails black, loves overusing eyeliner and plays tough macho guy games like call of duty, madness combat or some goofy ahh sniper game. He loves rock and metal music, even metalcore and a slight bit of deathcore. He's all edge. But of course, like any other human, he has his triggers too :PP
ALSO I HAVE NO IDEA WHY IM REPRESENTED BY A MAN BUT OH WELL
For Wonyoung, well, she loves laces and bows and shiny jewelry. She takes care of herself well and she's very body-conscious and is insecure. She loves doing makeup, playing with dolls and babbling cutesy words and brainrot. She really loves her long hair and she's into douyin and korean makeup. ALSO PINK PINK PINK PINKKKKKK
She is a huge fan of bubblegum pop and kpop music, along with eurobeat and maybe jazz. She's very cheery and optimistic.
You'll find that neither of them have the chaotic parts, which is all me. The gen z brainrot, lolrandum, scenecore and y2k aesthetics, cartoons and vivid colors... well, I don't know if they'd fit the bill. It's like I'm both myself and divided into three distinct people at the same time, yet can't be boxed into just one aesthetic and couldnt fit in with either.
And for things they have in common, well, they really love their friends and care for them, and they'd help them in any way they could, especially with emotional support 💜 They both believe that softness and vulnerability is a great way to heal, since they've been emotionally scarred by "tough love" 😖😖
You'll learn more about them in future fanfics, if ever I gain even more cool brainrots to share about them! Again, thank you so much for passing by on my first journal 🤩
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