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Been out of the loop these past few days XD
I've been even more addicted to customizing my laptop, and maybe my tablet and phone too eventually while we're at it. Also pc just ded oof
and uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I still haven't worked on my stories but that's alright, life gets in the way sometimes and I'll admit, I am indeed very lazy on keeping things together yet put much more effort in unrelated things, like finishing 80% of an ive fangame on scratch but stopped once I needed to write more complex code for save game purposes, and I don't have money as of now to get someone to write that save data code for me aaaaaAAAAAAAAA

I'm still on my y2k phase and I'm starting to think it's not a phase. It's been months and I'm still yearning to wear outfits like those girls from mean girls and like basically blinged out 2000s stuff. I love fitted clothes so much it makes me feel AND look slim even if I aint XD (no harm to plus sized people tho! they're so adorbs <3)
Right now I'm still taking notes with what aesthetic I want my laptop to be since I'm conflicted with giving it 2000s cutecore webcore + mac os x vibes OR if I want a general mcbling or y2k aesthetic. Since my laptop was nearing cyber y2k anyway but FOR SOME REASON my brain just went WHOOSH and wanted something different. Again.
Also ANNOYED cuz one of my fave themes keep displaying text ultra small and I'm figuring out how to fix it cuz the apply font size thing isnt working!! UGH!
i swear i keep fussing over the most randomest things and yet important stuff like my wriitng job gets the shorter end of the stick... but mom says i shouldnt worry about everything in life cuz she's gonna try and help me and like i shouldnt be carrying all indie burdens alone but I COULDNT HELP IT JHAJSDAKDDJSAK

Current Mood: working
Current Location: my house UWU
Current Music: goofy ahh music bababooey skibidi bop mm dada

The idea of this essay came to me while searching for cute games (it was a STRUGGLE. WHY CANT APKPURE/PLAY STORE JUST GIVE COOL STUFF NOT *AFTER* YOU LOOKED FOR IT BY THE SEARCHBAR?? and when you stop, it randomly shows up at the recommended. UGH.)

Back in my day, I used to resent aesthetics because I didn't get them (i was a stupid child) but now I just realized it's a gateway for me to appreciate cultures as a whole.
Scenecore got me to like vivid and bright colors, gothic aesthetics made me appreciate poetry and literature, emo and barbie/baddiecore made me more confident to express myself and preppy made me appreciate being a woman.

And now, with the kawaii stuff being a trend again, esp in my country (cute stationeries that are both expensive and affordable now exist), along with stuffed plushies, keychains and aesthetically pleasing things in general made me more aware of my color choices. It also got me to appreciate Japanese, Chinese and Korean culture aside from the music and shows. It's just amazing to see how far we've come as a species, and to appreciate different sides of the world, and how we're growing more and more global as time goes on. Heck, I occasionally see some of my own culture being aestheticized? probs not a word, but you get the point. It's moreso that they become more welcoming while still being their own thing, not necessarily being colonized or too simplified to others' palates. It's the very same thing with how cartoons and movies exposed me to Western culture and me learning bits about them, appreciating diversity in any way I could.

Again, maybe it's just me being too online than I should, but I'm not trading it for anything else. Reading has gotten me into good and bad, but mostly good, and I'm glad to be part of the online community since my early childhood days. :))

Current Mood: giddy
Current Location: my house UWU
Current Music: IVE - I Am, A7X - Carry On

I learned this the hard way, being burnt out from writing after completing my third paid book and having worked on partly some fanfictions. and here's what I have to say with all the brainrot I stuffed into my head and most of them are useless in the real world. Do not make the same mistakes I made, and here's what I've learned from my two and more years of writing as a "serious" hobby.

**Treat writing as if you're making a mindmap or having a conversation with yourself.**

When you start writing, imagine you're talking to someone who wants to hear what you have to say. You might feel like they're interrupting you or wanting to add their own voice to the discussion. That's okay – it means you're really engaged and passionate about sharing your thoughts! AND THATS COOL TOO CUZ YOU GET A FREE BOOST IN WRITING YAY. Ride the high cuz you wont get it all the time, just rapidly scribble all those thoughts when you can, and if not, well... there's always next time, hopefully!

**As you begin to write, think of each line or paragraph as a separate thread connecting to another idea or concept.** Try to visualize how your thoughts are flowing together and forming a cohesive narrative. I did try this a lot in my third book, and have plotted the entirety of my fourth book with this style. However, I have used bullet points and havent used the conversation/mind map technique as often in my stories, but they do help me a lot when writing long letters to friends.

You might also consider using prompts or exercises to get started, like "What would happen if I changed one word?" or "How could I describe my favorite hobby in a single sentence?" I learned this from kat, and now I did get to try some romance story prompts for my future stories... but I've yet too actually write them lol

**Don't take everything too seriously; lessen sources of stress.** Don't worry about grammar, spelling, or clarity unless absolutely necessary. Let your thoughts flow freely onto paper without editing or censoring yourself.

**Take breaks between drafts.** Stop when you feel slight fatigue and do a different activity e.g. video games or drinking water, then return to writing when you regained energy. Writing regularly can become monotonous and a source of stress.

**Write about things you're interested in rather than trying too hard to impress other writers.** The main reason I write is because I have all these goofy ahh stories which either don't exist yet or I don't know they exist. But I'll write them anyway because these ideas are so clumped in my already filled brain

**Keep sentences concise instead of verbose.** Cut out unnecessary words and phrases to keep your writing concise and focused. This will allow you to express your ideas more effectively.

**Include visuals where possible** It's so useful to capture sceneries, locations and overall vibes of a story. Used it for my third book (visions of sunsets, winter and fall) and wip fourth book which has lots of farm, rural and harvest festival themes.

**Focus on storytelling.** Instead of trying to convey complex information, focus on creating engaging narratives that capture readers' attention and imagination. Use anecdotes, examples, and vivid descriptions to bring your story to life.
**Use humor judiciously:** Humor is great for lightening heavy subjects and making reading enjoyable. However, ensure that any jokes or references align with your intended audience's preferences and sensitivities.

**Revise and edit carefully.** Editing is crucial when working on written content. Be ruthless when cutting sections or rewriting passages that don 't serve the overall purpose of your project. (I learned this the hard way, realizing not all scenes are good and that they are easily disposable if they dont fit the narrative. You can always repurpose them in future stories if they don't fit the current one, which I also did for a fanfiction and will be rewritten as a paid story).

Idk if these tips will help yall but I hope you enjoy reading my ramble xd

Current Mood: aggravated

I've been addicted to sims 3 for a couple days, and I'm just glad I dont need 10 gb worth of mods just to play it the way I want.

So far, I've moved into a place in the game that represents one of my brainrot countries, Diamantis Paradiso, which looks like 1920s america with art deco/noveau aesthetics, and a lot of stuff has happened.

- my husband (ifykyk) and I got into a job at a culinary business
- someone just hit on me and gifted me a painting
- Wonyoung got hit on by some bald guy and her brother shooed her off
- A zombie nearly attacked me and we ran home
- my husband got a promotion cuz he is handsome (our boss must have had a crush on him!! 😡) but i didnt even if we both worked hard
- we got exhausted caring for two babies. Regaining energy is so hard in this game!
- our tv and vinyl speaker broke and a repairman went there to fix it but died from being electrocuted by the vinyl speaker thing
- gaeul and wonyoung are traumatized by seeing the repairman's ghost
- I quit my job and decided to sell books for a living
- an art noveau computer shop opened along with a hotel made entirely of ice
- a guy wanted to date me and I declined. So glad my husband hasnt found out!
- Wonyoung's blog gets occasional donations
- my character's still working on her second book but never gets to finish it cuz of the babies

all that in like two-three days of playing 😭
Back then I never gave sims 3 a chance due to its horrible optimization and how it ran badly even with my pc (but then again, years ago I had all the dlcs). Turns out it runs so much better with less dlc, and I could honestly care less about into the future and those irl artist collabs this game has. It even runs so much better than sims 4, and loads even more lots and details! SIMS 4 COULD NEVER
With all that being said, sims 3 is like a more portable and "low-end" version of inZOI, especially that I'm more than sure my current laptop does not meet inZOI's minimum requirements, so I'm glad I can still have a similar enough experience with this game. Couple that with the third-person mod which allows me to control my character judt like in inZOI!!

Current Mood: silly

loona's always intrigued me with their lore, but I never found the theorists intuitive and that their lore is clashing with my already madeup lore. so i made my own, based on very vague hints given by loona's mvs. anddddddd of course combining other media's lore to connect with loona. like every other fandom that entered my world.
For starters, we have the nobles (odd eye circle), the lost souls (1/3) and the rebels/outcasts (yyxy), a once thriving community now divided by hate, prejudice and gossip.

The story hides in some of their music videos, scattered but there. And one of them, most obviously, is love4eva.

As you can see in the love4eva mv, the place looks like a paradise. The four girls live in a beautiful mansion-esque building nestled in a green and flourishing forest. The girls are seen as perfect, pristine, just the way they should be. But whispers are shared in secret and dreams are made, things that are not meant to be in their woodland paradise. They also have this creepy ahh girl, which I'll label Cocomong, who watches their every move in the mansion.

This paradise represents Emphyre, a dystopian country in which everything is strictly monitored under the threatening lens of the Agency... which is a subsidiary of the Empire, which rules on these dystopian nations in general. Get my point? THE LORE THICKENS. Cocomong is a terrible enemy of Loona and everyone else in Emphyre. He rules and thrives as Emphyre's leader. This sausage monkey enforces all of the rules, and the Loonas have no choice but to obey. Or so they thought.

Remember how the Loonas are divided into three partitions? So what if it's a social commentary on the social hierarchy? Loona 1/3 are the lower half, Loona Odd Eye Circle are the privileged nobles, and Loona yyxy are the rebels, the outcasts.

Notice how the Loonas don't even have near-distinct outfits. Because the Empire hates individuality and people are separated by social class. The yyxy Loona members have the most scrutiny next to Loona 1/3, because of Yves' nature; they're the most vulnerable to rebel. Loona 1/3 have a bit more freedom, being able to go around the world and travel, but there's still a tinge of sorrow or guilt clouding them. They represent the innocent and maybe naive side of the people. Thankfully, they still get to live somewhat normal lives, having innocence and only yearning of love and romance. But Loona Odd Eye Circle have the most freedom. They can do many things the other Loonas cannot. They know all and everything most Loonas don't, and either they contribute to the imbalance or they couldn't do anything about it but watch.

And by the end of the mv, with three of the four girls gone and Hyeju left in the forest, there are some questions. Why did they leave Hyeju alone? Why is she feared? Maybe she warned them not to go, that the outside world is too dangerous? Yet the other Loona girls wanted to leave, feeling suffocated and choked by the strict guidelines and harsh upbringing they had to endure. They wanted to live a normal life, and they couldn't under the Agency's scrutiny. And Hyeju feels betrayed, left alone to her thoughts.

You see, life wasn't always like this in Emphyre. They were one nation, united, harmonious and together. But a terrible war divided Emphyre from Myempheria into Emphyre and Myephere, and thus, the three groups of Loona forming. And this is all because of Cocomong and the Empire. And Loona as a whole? It's just the Loona girls struggling and trying their best to find a way to bring their two nations together again. But it's a long and arduous process...

Current Mood: crazy

-YAY ELECRICITY'S BACK-

The universe that my stories take place in are one and the same; yes, even the paid ones. It takes place on the Chaotic Multiverse, a Wandaland galaxy parallel to our world. Countries, planets and brands are different to avoid copyright issues and to avoid unintentional sponsorships.

First off, we have Erf, which is where most of my stories take place in. Erf is a planet much alike to Earth, but due to my brainrot, it shares tidbits of lore from both music and videogames I suppose? With how there's magic and there's magical powers, and how the Loona girls did escape the clutches of their homeland, which has some connections to a zombie game story and left Hyeju behind, which Hyeju misinterpreted as betrayal and now she's bent to seek revenge against those who wronged her and ditched her at her worst (which the said girls don't even realize). Erf also houses IVE7X and many music groups, and even dystopian realities clashing with the brainrot ones.

Erf has magic due to its magical energy radiation which we call "Rizz", and citizens having magical powers is the direct result of being in contact with that said radiation. This also mutated animals to have mutations: like pegasi, unicorns, alicorns and even shapeshifters like werewolves and beasts. Some of these mutated animals also serve as familiars to witches.

But where does the Rizz come from? It's simple - it comes from a Well of Rizz, located at the center of the Wandaland galaxy. The Well of Rizz is a flat plane with pillars and columns like Ancient Greek, and it's the primary source of rizz that powers Erf and its neighboring planets which are inhabited by multi-colored aliens. The Well of Rizz is highly electrical, and people are not advised to go there due to the dangerously high rizz levels! Literally speaking, it's a magical power plant in space.

Returning to Erf, this planet has varying levels of technology advancement. Some have holograms and robots, while some are still reliving the y2k aesthetic in present time like flip phones and retro computers! It seems that whatever my hyperfixation is at the moment is inherited by the galaxy, and Erf is no exception. People's appreciation for technology, old or new, made old technology not phase out in everyday use, unlike the world we live in today.

Right beside Erf is the planet of Not Erf. Not Erf is a planet that looks like Erf but the civilizations there are still stuck on Medieval times and its technology. Despite such, it does not hold all of the problematic values of the time and is (hopefully) mostly politically correct! Not Erf houses people of all kinds of genders and races, and like Erf, they also have creatures and beings deemed as mythological on Earth! Not Erf also has magic, and is either celebrated or frowned upon depending on the community.

For the other planets, however, they've yet to be discovered (yes, even by me). I haven't written enough lore about aliens, but I'm sure none of us want to know what they hide in their basements.
Oh! Forgot to mention - there's aliens around the universe, even on Erf and probably Not Erf. Aliens here are cartoonishly-looking, with multiple eyeballs, tentacles and colorful skintones. Some of them are well disguised as humans. Aliens could be one of us!!!

Jokes aside, I hope yall would appreciate the stories I will share which takes place on either of these planets. Thanks for reading my lore dump!

Current Mood: cheerful

**My first entry here! uwu**

So this is just something everyone notices on first glance - my obsession with that one metal band and that one girl group - those hyperfixations and projections on my personified, idealized perfect versions of those said music groups. But why exactly did I hyperfixate on Wonyoung and that one guy with those obnoxious aviator sunglasses?

Well, to be fair, it took me years to realize I was self-projecting. Projecting the persona I wish to be, want to be, through my head, making up a little universe of gen alpha brainrot and musicians and making them biologically related, even if it seems practically impossible. Heck, they were born on different decades, are from different generations, yet for me it's like they're only a few years apart. My mind just LOVES generating brainrot for me on autopilot, and I can't help it LOL

Since childhood, I've always had imaginary friends. Some grew up with me while some got retconned, and now came in new ones - Wonyoung and her 'brother'. Wonyoung is the cutesy, always pouting, the moody young lady who's always right by her brother's side, the rowdy, harsh but sweet rockstar. Wonyoung somehow represents my sensitive, innocent side I still cherish to this day, whereas her brother is the side who's seen the horrors of the world and is overprotective, the one guy who's seen terrible things and doesn't want his sister to suffer as much as he did. Strangely enough, I relate to my version of M Shadows more than Wonyoung, even if, again, I'm an only child; and as much as I wanted to be more of a Wonyoung, I hyperfixate on him more than her, and it totally does not have to do with me having a huge crush on him. Nope. XD

These two characters have been a huge comfort to me since around 2022, and they're probably here to stay for like, a couple more years or a decade like my other hyperfixations. :))